TMI Tuesday #208

1. On a scale of 1-10 (10 being the highest), how satisfied are you with your life?
Read my blog, it’s pretty obvious that I wouldn’t go much higher than a 3. Maybe a 4 on a good day.

1a. On a scale of 1-10 (10 being the highest), how satisfied are you with your sex life?
That I would put at a 7 I suppose. There’s probably a few things I’d improve but they are more to do with the lead up, you know that verbal stuff that often takes place before making it to the bedroom and the foreplay begins.

2. What is the easiest way for you to reach orgasm?
Clitoral, without a shadow of a doubt. Though I do quite like just having one through the sexual act alone. For me they are both very different and sometimes I just prefer the second one.

3. What are 3 inevitable things about you?
What a strange question. Inevitable...hmm. That I will always get pissed off over something that everyone else thinks is ridiculous. That despite actually enjoying sex most of the time I’ll avoid it because the rest of my life sucks ass. That I will always think more about doing than actually doing.

4. What is your favourite sexual position? (yes you have to narrow it to one).
That’s easy. From behind, or more commonly known as doggy style, though I’m definitely not a big fan of the name.

4a. What is you least favourite sexual position?
That’s a little harder...probably missionary I suppose. Or maybe that one where the guy is on his back and then woman on top facing away. I find that a little painful.

5. Favourite body part/parts of the opposite (or same) sex?
I like a strong jaw on a man. A nice looking chest is good too. I really like soft, silky hair and soft skin on a woman.

6. Would you rather have you significant other (this can be a hypothetical SO) have sex with someone else or fall in love with someone else? [You have to pick one.]
To be brutally honest, at this exact moment, I’d be happy for him to fall in  love with someone else. Can you tell I’m not completely happy in my married life right now? In general I would probably say I’d rather he have sex with someone else than fall in love. Sex and love are two different things, though I’m completely shit at the telling what those differences are.

7. When you have a "toe-curling" orgasm, do your does curl up, or down?
I think down, no maybe it’s up...I don’t know.

8. Name three words that:
a) get you excited
b) make you squirm
c) make you laugh
Oh this is pathetic, I can’t think of any that do any of those, particularly the first two. Funny words for vagina’s and penis’s often make me laugh. I honestly can’t think of any at the moment. I’m sure once I go visiting and see what everyone else has written I’ll go, “Oh, I should have thought of that!” But I won’t come back and change anything because that would be cheating.

Others have given TMI too. Go and see.

Friday Fill-In’s #144

Just a wee bit of housekeeping. This FFI makes brings up 100th post! I would never have thought I'd get this far, let alone with people who stop by regularly too! I began a blog many, many moon's ago and then abandoned it for a variety of reasons, but something about this one, not sure what it is, keeps me coming back and spilling my guts for all the world to see. I enjoy my little home here and hopefully I can make it to 200 posts. Thanks to you who come by regularly to see me, you know who are and you really do make doing this incredibly worthwhile.

Now, onto the fill-in's...

1. I have a history of being a moody pain in the ass. I can go to bed feeling perfectly fine one day and wake up the next morning thinking all sorts of horrible thoughts and feeling absolutely worthless. At this point, it seems to define me.

2. Complete, total and permanent happiness is something I wish I knew. When I do have it, for those fleeting moments, I just know it’s going to disappear again, almost as soon as it arrived and it doesn’t matter what I try and do, that’s how it’s always going to be.

3. I’m eating (or recently ate) about half a Domino’s large Meatasaurus pizza. Except it didn’t have a thin crust and there was BBQ sauce instead of tomato so it wasn’t as good as it could have been and I didn’t get to have any brownies either.

4. Don’t fall over on the main road. I’ve thought about the answer for this one and that is the best that I can come up with at the moment, pathetic isn’t it?

5. So that’s it, that’s how it is, is it?

6. I often wonder if where I am now in life is better than nothing.

7 And as for the weekend, tonight I’m looking forward to watching TV or mucking around on the computer (though I don’t think I’d personally say that I’m looking forward to especially), tomorrow my plans include doing the housework in the morning, followed by more television and/or mucking around on the computer and Sunday, I want to do the same thing I did Friday night and Saturday just without the housework part!

And that, my friends, is FFI’s. Feel free to play along.

Wordless Wednesday #2

Player Piano by Nina Frazier on Flickr

You should really go check out the full-size version.

TMI #206

I am actually sitting here using my very own computer! I have it back, for the time being. I'm going to enjoy it while I can and hope that I don't ever have to not have it again. I've got music playing and I'm actually smiling! Can you believe it!

1. Have you used put anything edible on (or in) your partner's body and then eaten it?

Yep. I bought body chocolate one year for Christmas, or it might have been his birthday, can't remember which. It wasn't very nice chocolate though. Should have just used Nutella. I seem to remember trying whipped cream once before too.

2. Have you ever had an AIDS test due to reasonable suspicion or hyperactive imagination?

No, but I have had one before, when I was pregnant. It turned out they just did them without actually asking first. Well it was either that or because I was only 15 they figured that I was the 'type' who might get it.

3. Have you ever fantasized about someone else other than your partner while you were engaged in sex, oral sex, or mutual masturbation?

Yes. Yes I have. Nobody in particular really. I usually fantasize about having another girl there or just being with another girl in general. Always does it for me.

4. Have you ever engaged in sex, oral sex, or mutual masturbation while in a moving car? A car being driven by someone not engaged in the sex, oral sex, or mutual masturbation?

Yeah, when I was a lot younger. It was nothing worth rehashing though. Just the usual pashing and groping, that sort of thing. :)

5. Have you ever had sex so many times or for so long that one or both people involved runs dry?

Are you kidding me! Absolutely! Heaps of times. That's what lubricant is for isn't it?

Bonus (as in optional): Name 5 things an unplanned (or planned) visitor would find in your bedroom?

1. My side of the room neat and The Husbands a mess.

2. My Mood Journal.

3. Very little in the way of girly things, like makeup and hair products.

4. The desktop computer.

5. A couple of vibrators and a penis pump. (What, you didn't think I'd leave out the good stuff did you?) The penis pump is there not because The Husband has a little pecker but because he'd always wanted to try one and when the opportunity arrived for him to buy one he thought why not. Personally, I think it's a little dumb, but that's just me.

Happy Belated TMI one and all. :)

Total Rubbish

I had most of a post written and then I deleted it. I'm so flat at the moment and I can't seem to drag myself out of it.

There's so much that is just plain wrong at the moment. Has been for a while and I'm too gutless to do anything about it.

I'm unhappy in my marriage but the thought of talking about it scares the absolute hell out of me. I wouldn't know where to begin. I do know that he would just get angry and be incredibly cruel about it all. He always is when I try and talk about our relationship and the problems that so deep that I'm not sure whether they will ever be able to be fixed.

Just to give a small example. A social life. I don't have one. We don't really have one. He knows plenty of people, I don't. Why? Because he doesn't trust me. He doesn't trust anyone that I get friendly with. If I should get friendly with someone he has to be a part of it 100%. I have one friend and the last time she asked me out to lunch, for some function that she was invited to, we had a two hour screaming match because he demanded that I take one of the kids with me. That I couldn't go alone, with just my friend. A time after that, our oldest wanted me to go to a concert with her, to see a band I really like, she had free tickets to go. Again, a screaming match ensued. This one went on for about 3 days all up. Oh and no, I didn't go. Anytime I want to do something, that doesn't involve him, all hell breaks loose. That's why I'm doing the uni course I want to do online, so I don't have to go to classes or anything like that. He won't be able to start an argument and stop me going.

If I were to ignore him and just do what I wanted, I'd pay for it for weeks on end. I'd get the silent treatment, he'd be nasty and mean to me. He'd just be an asshole all round until I sucked up enough that he'd get over it. It's ridiculous.

I've tried having friends over the years but it's always ended badly. Usually because he acts like a wanka and they just don't want to come and see me anymore. Some of the people I've been friends with have even told me this, so it can't be just my imagination.

The older I'm getting, the more I'm realising that I'm missing out on so much because I don't want to rock the boat. I'm so fucking tired of not rocking the boat. I want to capsize the boat and have everyone drown at this point!

That's just one little aspect of the things that are wrong with us. I know I need to fix it all. We need to fix it. I'm just not sure it can be because I'm the only one who is willing to aknowledge there is anything even wrong except the fact that I don't talk enough or put out enough.

Oh, I don't know. It's just all to fucking hard and I just can't be bothered.