Nothing to Say Really

  I’m not sure why I’m posting to be quite honest. I don’t have a huge amount to say at the moment.

Tomorrow its my turn with the psychologist. The Husband has his last Thursday. I want to go, because it’s something different and maybe it will help to get things sorted out but part of me just doesn’t give a shit. I’m so resigned to the fact that nothing is ever going to be different. Plus, I feel little sympathy for The Husband and what he’s going through.

I know that sounds terribly harsh but it’s the truth. From my perspective, it’s like he’s spent all these years wallowing in his shit and making everyone else unhappy for it. Wallowing is fine, taking it out on others is fine too sometimes. To do it for so long though and not once listen to people who tell they care and think you need to do something about it all is just bullshit as far I’m concerned. He had my sympathy but he just crapped all over it and now it suits him to deal with it he wants it back again.

I need to get past this anger. I really do. Maybe that is what the psychologist will help me do. Maybe she’ll even tell me if it’s worth it or even possible to get past it. The Husband really liked her from what he said. I’ve got a feeling that doesn’t bode well for me. If she was being truly genuine with him then I may not like her. I got the feeling that she was playing to him. Mirroring him in a way. The way he spoke and acted she copied in an effort to make him comfortable. I’m probably over analysing it though…surprise, surprise! If that is the case though, she’ll more than likely do the same thing to me too.

I don’t know what I’ll say when I’m sitting there. I’m not sure what the point is for me, personally. Is just to learn to deal with The Husband? Is it to help me fix my marriage? Is to help me? Is it a combination of all of them and other things I haven’t got a clue about? Either way I’m sure I’ll write an absolute ton about it all when I get the chance too.

Before I go, you might have noticed that I’ve added a couple of things in my sidebar recently. I’ve found that when I can’t concentrate lately I like through images again so I’m trying to post more stuff on my Tumblr account and I’ve discovered a site called We Heart It which I also went and got myself an account for. Plus I decided to get a Formspring account too. Not sure why really, just felt like it. So if you want to know something, besides the blatantly obvious, like who I really am and related questions, then go ahead, ask away.

Critical thinking, French and Industrial Revolutions, Socialism and Feminism are currently calling, along with some maths crap too. I probably should listen to them all…